Review by Holly

“My Secret Self” by Christine Cowin is a delightful book and very well written. It flows easily because it’s so exciting and it is written with great knowledge of language and the flow of the words is brilliant. Christine has written her story in a chronological order about her childhood and that in itself is an absolute delight, even with those in her family and the things they used to do. In the background is trauma that Christine had to live through, but the background does not in any way diminish the rest of the manuscript; how she has overcome it is an inspiration to anybody who has to overcome this trauma. 

It was trauma perpetrated by a family member in whom Christine had trust, and that trust was broken because of what he did to her; and yet despite this, it is still a book of great enjoyment with well-written, lovely little narratives about her childhood, and also the joys of childhood are expressed very beautifully. Everybody should have a childhood like this because it was such a good time, except for this one traumatic thing; yet Christine has chosen to decide that she will not let that ruin her life; and any other children and grown-ups who have had this trauma of being molested by another person, they could learn a lot from Christine’s example. 

Christine has shown great courage and fortitude to be able to overcome this very traumatic time of her life and write a book about it, and not a book which is maudlin in any way; it is a book which states what happened, and almost not from an objective point of view, because it would have been for any child a most traumatic event or events. But she has shown great resilience in deciding (and here is the key word, deciding) to not let those events of childhood ruin her life, and for that it is much to be commended; not only for telling this tale but for these delightful insights into her childhood with her family members. 

The writing is of such a high calibre that anyone would be glad to read this book, and anybody who does not have Christine’s book would be very well advised to get it, because it shows insight into certain things that people hush, hush about and Christine has come out boldly and made it known in her book how she lived through these traumas and managed through great fortitude of character to overcome this in her adulthood. Christine is much to be recognized and praised for being able to do this with what has happened, and I hope you all enjoy reading “My Secret Self” by Christine Cowin.

Reader’s Favorite Review

Reviewed by Gisela Dixon for Readers’ Favorite

My Secret Self: Trials and Tribulations of an Innocent by Christine U. Cowin is a non-fiction autobiography written in the first person by Christine. In My Secret Self, Christine has described her early years through her teenage life living in Australia. The books follows a chronological order and is divided into chapters and sections that describe Christine’s life as a child growing up around nature and animals, her internal dysfunctional family dynamic with her parents, siblings, grandmother who helped raised her, her sexual abuse at the hands of her father and others, her mother’s reaction or lack thereof to her sexual abuse, the resulting years of isolation and desperate coping, and more. This book is the first part of Christine’s
life and mainly focuses on her early years.

I thought My Secret Self: Trials and Tribulations of an Innocent was an inspiring book and stories such as Christine’s of sexual abuse and neglect are unfortunately all too common and that is why it is important to spread awareness around the issue of incest and childhood sexual abuse. Christine writes in a moving and simple way and the minute details—such as her relationship with animals—lends authenticity to the book. She also describes paranormal experiences and refers to her personal spiritual journey intermittently throughout the book as well. I am hoping to read further installments of her story and her journey into adulthood as well as her later relationship dynamic with her family. This is an interesting and educational read.

My Inspirational Story

How it all started.

2001 was the first time I traveled overseas and I am forty-nine years old I had lived a very sheltered life, married, divorced and studied.

I studied with a college in Australia that allowed me to go to Italy to study and there I remembered I had to go to Turkey to visit it.

I got a train from Rome to the boot of Italy; to the port of Brindisi to catch a ferry boat to Greece and then on to the Island of Samos. I have never traveled and I had no fear. I was on a mission and I was following a calling I had twenty years prior to going to Turkey.

I spent time in Greece and on the Island of Samos and then I got a barge to Kusadasi, Turkey. We were nearing the port and I ran downstairs. Why did I do that for?  As I waited to dock with the smelly cars and their exhaust fumes, again I asked myself – why am I downstairs?

But I would soon found out. When the barge door went down, I felt oh my God I have come home. And as soon as I stepped onto Turkish soil I knew instantly I had come home. I ended up travelling around Turkey on little and big buses like I knew the place, like the back of my hand. I had come home.

Follow my story on how I will go back and live in Turkey. But what was the lead up to making that decision? I had to go home, but why was Turkey my home?

Face the Fear

When fear raises its ugly head don’t run away from it; face the fear and welcome it. When we try to run from the fear or bury the fear deep within, it will resurface on and off until you acknowledge it. Because the soul wants you to know it to heal it when it’s time for it to heal, and be known to you. Remember, God only gives us what we can handle. Seek out help and clear it.

Your Script

My Secret Self: Trials and Tribulations of an Innocent: family relationships have a significant bearing on one’s life. Family with all its diversity – how did I shift through all I’d learned and observed? How did I see through the conditionings I was taught?
It’s not an easy task to see the truth of what you were conditioned into but it can be done and I did it.
I found myself out of all the characters I was playing out, that they weren’t my roles. I was playing roles in a script formulated for me; because I’d forgotten my own script.
Families can influence our perceptions of life. Until we unravel the falsehoods to find the truth for ourselves.